Paranoia vs. Faith

Neurotic thoughts that run through my head:

• I accidentally brought the cell phone to work with me today, instead of leaving it for my husband, as I usually do. Is this because I'm going to get in an accident and will need it?
  
  
• When someone is driving slowly ahead of me, is God saving me from an accident that may occur if I arrived at my destination a few minutes early?
  
  
• When it occurs to me to take an alternate route home "for a change", am I avoiding some tragic fate?

Can you tell I'm a bit fearful of car accidents? I've been in more than I can count...most of them not my fault. I've often said I think there's an invisible bullseye on my car. Granted I do have a weekly commute of about 250 miles, so that increases my odds a bit.

My husband does not like flying. He will NOT get on a plane (due to bad past experiences). I am frightened of flying, too, but love to travel, so I suck it up. When I try to convince my husband (unsuccessfully) to give it another try, I use the following logic: If it's your time to go...it's your time to go. There's not a d@mn thing you can do about it. You can't live your life fearful of what MAY be or you are not really living.

Physician, heal thyself.